Saturday, February 25, 2012

A Mile of a Different Color

5:14 AM.  The phone is ringing again.  I was expecting it, but I hadn't been back to sleep for very long after the first time it rang around 2:30.  I wasn't sure if I should be grateful for it waking me from the strange dreams I was having or despise it for raping me of another hour or two of sleep on a Saturday.
"You comin'?" 
"I guess," I croaked back at my husband through the receiver.
"I'll be down there in 10 or 15 minutes.  Be ready."

The girls were at their grandparents'.  We had gotten a few inches of sleet and snow overnight, and it was still coming down.  I was going to get to ride with my husband while he plowed and sanded his town route, although at 5:00 in the morning I wasn't as eager as I had been twelve hours earlier.  But since he'd been up for three hours already, I couldn't complain.  I hopped out of bed, threw yesterday's sweater and jeans on, and headed for the kitchen with the dog.  I put the kettle on the stove, let Deacon in and out and fed him; sliced some bread and made a PB&J for a breakfast to go; grabbed a banana, my cell, my mug, and my camera too; donned a hat, my boots, and coat; and after receiving another impatient phone call, ran out the door and down the driveway.  No lights were on at the neighbor's.  The snow was thick and crunchy, so I didn't have to worry about slipping, even in the dark.  The air was crisp, and the snow whispered against my face and neck.

The behemoth green dump truck waited for me down at the road, growling, lights flashing seemingly from every angle of it.  I went around to the passenger side, reached up to open the door, threw my sandwich and banana up into the seat, and climbed into the cab via the arms of the plow wing.  I took my coat off, buckled, and settled in. 

We made our way up the hill in silence, and when he finally spoke he said that in the village earlier he had had to wait for a skunk to cross the road, that he could smell it from Frazers all the way up onto the Quechee Road.  We haven't had that much snow at all this winter and just came out of a particularly springy week, full of mud and sunshine.  "It was pissy...its balls were probably draggin' in the snow."  My husband has a colorful repertoire, especially on four hours of sleep. 

Most of the other vehicles we met on the road were personal plow trucks.  The radio was quiet too, except for the occasional state or town worker coming on to check in with the others.  But when they did speak it was so loud I had to turn my head to shield my ears.  No wonder he's losing his hearing.

I'm bounced around in my seat, cradling my licorice-mint tea while he tends to business.  The huge dash is full of buttons and gauges.  Within the 2- or 3-foot span between our seats is a line of 6 levers which control the two plows (front and side), the tailgate, and something else I can't remember.  To the left of those is a box with two dials and a push-lever on it, which controls the sander.  And then there's the long shifting lever in front of the sander box.  Sometimes he has his hands on the steering wheel and two of these other things at once.  I contemplate why he can't multitask like this at home (perhaps I need to put a strobe light and some knobs on top of the trash bin so he'll remember to take it out).  The truck itself is tall; the bottom of the cab where I had climbed in earlier is at about chest level.  The front plow is about 4 feet tall.  There's a constant low whine of the engine and other rumbling of mechanics taking place around us; there are chains rattling; and of course there's the scraping of the the plows against dirt, rocks, and pavement.  With every irregularity in the road or when he pushes into a snow bank at an intersection, we get thrashed and bounced.  It's a big cage of testosterone on giant wheels, really.  Which, I suppose, is what caused this girl to get out of bed and run down her driveway in the dark at 5:30 AM.  It's good to see him in his element. 




But there are other reasons I like this particular ride too.  It's sort of therapeutic...to look out my window at the snow shooting off the wing, the lights strobing, the trees whizzing by.  He says I talk even less than usual when I get in this truck.  And our daughters are the same way.  There's just so much going on, it's easy to get lost in thought.  But in the breaks of contemplating the universe, we chat about whose tap lines are whose...the GI bug of a coworker last week that went through him like "wildfire"...the logging of a parcel of land.  I roll down my window and push the mirror in or out on request, as it apparently gets rocked out of place.  It's still dark, but there are lights starting to come on in the houses we pass. 

After an hour I'm rubbing my eyes, wishing I had remembered my glasses.  The sky is starting to lighten.  A few more cars are on the road.




It's really a beautiful time, with the new blanket of white over everything, a photographer's dream (had the ride not been so bumpy and the pictures not so blurry).  Everywhere I look is a would-be beautiful shot...a majestic barn, an extra-still and silent cemetery, the sun and blue sky trying their best to break through gray clouds. 




Back in the village we fuel up at the town garage, and stop in at the store for an English muffin and beverages for the driver.  We plow on through hour 2.  There's a trailer wherein lives an old friend who we can see drinking coffee in his kitchen. We give a long honk, and he cranes his neck and waves cheerfully at us. 


The bouncing in the cab continues.  The driver notes "this would be more fun if you weren't wearing a bra."  Fun for him, sure.  He gets the seat with the suspension in it.  I'm not about to put any more of my body parts at the mercy of this ride.  I'm already rubbing my neck, my back is starting to protest and dream of yoga positions, and my knees - which put on a few extra miles of running this week - are begging to be straightened.




At hour 3 the sun is shining brightly here and there, now and again, and people are out with their dogs on leashes.  We stop at the garage again, this time to take the front plow and tire chains off.  My husband has kin with a rubbish business who are parked in the lot, collecting from their Saturday-morning customers.  I chat with them while husband wrestles with his metal beast.  It's good to stretch my legs and feel the wind. 

Our next stop is the sand pile.  While the guys take turns running the loader and filling up their trucks, I doodle, jot some notes, and finish my tea. 





And we move on.  I have to get back home to do 4 or 5 hours of my own work soon.  I enjoy the last few miles of sunshine and scenery.




Back on our own hill, we take a left turn onto what probably shouldn't be a town-maintained road, as it's really just a driveway.  But an elderly couple lives there, along with some of their children who have recently built and/or inherited houses along the drive too.  This family once owned most of the hill we all live on, and the couple is endeared to the neighborhood.  A day or two before, the wife passed away...two months after her husband died, just before Christmas. 

"I usually turn around here..." my husband says as we pass their barn...but he continues on up the long driveway, right to the elderly couple's doorstep.  He's colorful; but he's a good, sweet man.

He drops me off at the bottom of the driveway with a kiss, where my adventure began 4 hours ago.  He still has most of his route to sand.  By late morning, he'll have been in his truck 8-1/2 hours, put on 116 miles of mostly dirt road, and spread four dump truck loads of sand and salt.  I hope wherever you traveled today, you got there safely.




So, welcome newborn snow.  Enjoy your brief end-of-February stay in our town.  Thank you for giving my husband some overtime....and thank you for enriching our landscape with such a colorless backdrop that the beauty of our fields, fences, branches, and streams can boast their simplistic splendor.





Sunday, January 8, 2012

A Country Mile

The kids had spent the night at their grandparents, so this morning the Mr. and I drove into town for a coffee.  About halfway there we both spotted a white goose sitting on a grassy embankment not far from the guard rail.  Hub turned around up the road, and I got out and went over to investigate.  I approached, and it was defintely a tame goose as opposed to wild. In the back of my head I was thinking maybe it would be friendly and it would like me, but the front of my head was envisioning past encounters with geese, usually with a rake or the like in hand for protection. 

It didn't move til I got close, and then it started honking and lowering its head, walking around a bit, nibbling at the ground while it did so.  I figured this was nervous energy as opposed to actual searching for food.  But I'm not up on my goose psychology.  Anyway, it started walking farther down the bank but turned back and gave me a big open-mouthed hiss.   I didn't have my camera on me at the time to capture this special bonding moment between us, unfortunately.

We named it Cuddles. 

I got back in the truck and texted my animal control officer friend in town.  She replied that this goose probably belonged to a lady a few roads over who had 100 or so of them, that it probably just wandered off.  I suppose that's possible, but I wonder what would make a goose wander away from such a flock (other than some peace and quiet).  I worried someone had just dropped this creature off, maybe seeing the small stream that ran through at the bottom of the bank and hoped it would be ok until somebody found it...or maybe they didn't care at all.  We went on with our morning, got our coffee, went for a little ride around town, and returned home. 

A couple hours later I had hub drop me off about 3 miles down the road so I could jog home, rather than do my usual looped route...

On my short warm-up walk, I stopped and said good morning to these two.  They came out of their barn to say good morning back, probably hoping I'd have a carrot or an apple.  Sorry guys.



Just after I started jogging, I stopped to take a picture of this fine fellow.  I'm not sure how many hundreds of times I had trotted by without noticing him over the years, but I didn't until last summer.



Apparently he was just as shocked to see me.  I fear *he* may never recover, though.

A bit farther up the road is one of my favorite barns in town.  The barn itself is nothing too special, but I just love this view of it.  It's especially breathtaking on a drizzly summer morning, when the grass is green and lush, and the red of the barn is deep.  In the summer there are sheep in the field behind it, and in the winter a flock of wild turkeys is ever present under an apple tree there.  I even once saw a young coyote prowling about the woods nearby.




At the end of my first mile I'm back at this morning's guard rail, peering over to see my friend, the ornery goose, bathing in the stream at the bottom of the bank.  I had hoped it wouldn't still be there.  But alas, it was and seemed content enough.  It tried to ignore me, but then got up after a minute and waddled about a bit, honking again.  My cell phone doesn't zoom or take especially clear pictures, but I think if you look really closely you can see Cuddles was actually blowing me kisses.



I hope it does return home, by its own doing or that someone else notices and is able to capture it.  I hope that it gets some shelter and the food that it's accustomed to.  I'm not sure how to catch a goose.  But having left my stealth helicopter and giant fine-mesh net in my other jacket, I had no choice but to wish it well and move on.  There's a nice lady that lives up the other side of the bank, and she has a big raspberry patch in the summertime.  Maybe this goose will soon be living the good life.  Who knows?

And there you have your first country mile. 



I'll leave you here and trod on a couple more...finding my own way back home.



Monday, January 2, 2012

Resolution Schmesolution OR I want to be like Dolly Parton

I do not wish to have circus freak-show-caliber breasts; but it got you here, so I hope you’ll stay for a wee spell.

I’m not a resolution maker, per se. But I’m big on improvement. If you want to call it resolution making, or goal setting, so be it. 2011 was a silent rollercoaster ride for me personally. I’ve been taking stock and have made a short list of, well…some schmesolutions – some are basic things that I want to and feel confident that I can make more time for, and some are more noble developments within myself that I’d like to see grow, with a little less manure and a lot more sunshine:

1. Blog more.
‘Nuf said.

2. Make more soup.
Not just soup, but more dishes in general. There’s nothing better than cooking on a Sunday and having two or three go-to meals in the fridge that I can heat up quick during the week. I too often find myself reluctant to give up work time to prepare a real lunch and go running to the peanut butter jar with a spoon to get me by a few more hours. As a vegan in a mostly omni family, I tend to just throw together “whatever” rather than make nice meals for myself. So, ”make more soup” = make more time for my own tummy. Yeah.

3. Run more.



The last four years I’ve done a lot of long-distance walking and considered myself a bit of a sporadic jogger as well; but when I took on the 9-week Couch-to-5K challenge in September I realized just how much of a jogger I was not. The first week consisted of running & walking in 60-second intervals for 20 minutes. I thought it would be a breeze, that I could probably skip to week 2 or 3...It whooped my ass. I couldn’t even begin to imagine running spurts of 3 minutes, 10 minutes, 30!? But I kept going, religiously, figuring if this program didn’t work, I was just genetically unfit to run. It was my last ditch effort to grow some stamina. I had two pals in town doing the C25K as well. We kept tabs after each run, building each other’s confidence, exchanging helpful tidbits…from muscle fatigue to cold nipples to frustration on the lack of time before dusk. We ran our first official 5K together on Thanksgiving day. I’m now a runner, with firmer legs and a healthier heart and lungs. I'm so proud of myself and my friends. So, schmesolution: Increase my speed and distance…perhaps a 10K in 2012? Yeah.

4. Be nice.
Love. Patience. Acceptance. Forgiveness. It sounds like weed-puffing ideology, I know. I’ve never seen “Steel Magnolias” from beginning to end (and have no plan to, honestly) but I read somewhere recently a quote from it…perhaps in another blog…where Dolly Parton’s character says something to the effect of “I’d rather walk on my own lips than say something bad about another person.” I’m the first to scoff. Phhht. How ridiculous. What a simpleton. Who’s that honestly righteous? Right?.....right?

I’ve never been a very sympathetic person. I’m a believer in making our own beds and sleeping in them. But I’ve been bombarded with notions of late, loving lofty notions, in different forms, from various sources, that are working their way into my cold cold heart.

The first heart intruders…some dear friends, a reverend at our local Unitarian Universalist church and his wife. Our daughters are best friends, their stars first aligning 11+ years ago in our childbirth class. But that's another story.
The UU church's philosophy is love and community. Not fire and brimstone vs salvation, not self loathing vs self righteousness. Just love, acceptance of all beliefs and believers, and enjoyment and wonder of all things natural in this world. Well, at least that’s my take on it so far. This was a very new concept to me, having grown up in a Pentecostal vs Atheist household. However, I dug my heels in good. No organized religion for me ever again. Bah! Until I sat in the pew this fall for the first time and found my eyes brimming with tears through the whole sweet service. How comforting, how nostalgic, how healing. I’m not a regular yet by any stretch, but I think there’s something to be said for craving church instead of feeling burdened by it.

My best friend e-mailed me one Saturday asking if I’d like to go to a concert with her the next night…her daughter was sick; her husband had to stay home. I’d listened to a couple of The Avett Brothers tunes on YouTube previously, and they sort of put me to sleep, it’s true. So, I wasn’t expecting much from the concert, but was excited to spend the evening with my besty. As it turned out, it totally rocked, and I’m now a major TAB fan. Call it hippy, folksy, what you will. But those boys are filled with a light and have a way of kick drumming it into your soul. And who knew banjos could be so damn sexy? Ahem. Moving on…

I can be a vindictive bitch. In a yikes sort of way. No, it’s true. And I let it shine a couple times this last month, to a coworker and family, and although I relished the evil mah-ah-ah-ah “take that!” moments, in the end it felt so good to reconcile. Anger and hostility take so much more energy than acceptance and forgiveness and understanding (those whacky-weed words again). But it’s true. What a load off the heart to be kind instead. I decided I needed to start thinking positive and less smarmy in my own head and heart, not just wearing it on my face. It would save me from those snarky moments to begin with.

So, I’ll try to keep Dolly’s words (that’s “words,” boys) in mind each day, as a reminder.




Happy new year. Help me grow. Fertilize me. And I will fertilize you. Be kind, to yourself and to others...and don't forget the animals. (Puff Puff...Ima needin' somethin' munchy!)